Sunday, December 5, 2010
life on EDGE!
..I met Teresa again ...she was with same sling bag and sneakers ,may be back from university ..as usual,wearing some Indian bangles and some beautiful rings..but I still could hear shiver in her voice..
Teresa is beautiful red head girl studying in ..UFM(university of Michigan )one of the best universities of US..but every time I see her I assume "She is on High"but never had a heart to ask but her general personality speaks out..she has that dreamy glazed eyes and shivering voice...asking for water if she is at my work place and then popping some pills .I once asked her what happened?? she said I am not well..but when I saw her hands, they were shaking ..she said I am upset ,I asked why?? she said I..my. (trembling)... exams didn't go well! ...was she lying? I thought...but these are personal questions.. like do you take drugs?I mean.. I cannot ask this ..its offending!!what if she is not??and I upset her for no reason!!
Life is on edge for those who are on the path of addiction..whether its alcohol or drugs or adultery...then days are counted..you never know when the countdown begins and there is blast!!..I really pity these people as to why they choose this way of life!!
are they weak personalities?or situations...there are many similar situations where I saw strangers in the car" on high"..really scared..as to what happened to them.?? my hubby..told me they are"on high" its crying like for no reason or just smiling or being a Zombie...
Addiction is a complex but treatable condition. It is characterized by compulsive drug craving, seeking, and use that persist even in the face of severe adverse consequences..its a chronic ,recurring illness which ultimately spreads but can be cured..depending upon an individual and circumstances!
We were in Canada for vacation in Toronto...I visited one of the houses where the tenants I saw an old Indian uncle ..I didn't know as to what he was doing..but my hubby noticed and smiled..."Uncle is having some good time"I could see uncle smelling something out of the paper...its was very strange !!
Alcohol another addiction...if you don't put a stop..it goes forever ...this is a very common addiction among men and women..Ladies go berserk in parties...more then men ..women are seen on the Bars..its absurd Indian women at this height?? My last trip to India I was at a party..they made a cocktail and offered me..I refused and said I don't drink....they mocked as if ..I am from some village...but I give a damn !!to all this stuff where a women looses her dignity after a couple of drinks...but most of the crowd I could see was as if they just landed here from US or any other foreign country....same style of slang and copying the western world!!so Fake!! so much Booze ..!!and then ..laughing for no reason ..its like a clown in-front of
everyone...Disgusting!! I think living is US and following traditions here is not hard as in India now!!people are lured by west for no apparent reason!!or maybe I just want to keep myself away from all this stuff!
Adultery which is one of the worst of its kind in addiction.....men or women..getting into physical lust is nothing but a disease which leads to end of life very soon... US has an open society concept..physical relationships is no big deal...BUT then teenage pregnancy is maximum , single moms in abundance or divorces on part of cheating with partners ..so end of the day..its not God or anybody else who is culprit but own our deeds...
Tiger woods or Mayor Kirkpatrick or even Bill Clinton ..became a laughing stock at one time..for their misconduct and adultery..but tiger woods was a worst case..!!!
.life is on edge for those ,who are chain smokers or any kind of serious addiction...the countdown is bad and scary ..days are counted then..think before you take DRUGS!
(my blogs are my personal experiences and not a fiction..anybody having a similar experience is just a coincidence ,not to offend anyone.)